So I finished the west side of the fence line. I had two co-workers with me but they weren't much help.
Jethro and Gibbs went out with me and stayed with me the whole time I was out there. Then they followed me home. They were good for entertainment when I took a few breaks.
This is the north view from the end of our property, towards the cow pasture. This is the west corner.
Hard to see what exactly I cleared here but this is facing south back towards the house.
So a bout of anxiety ended the job at the factory.
Been working on my crochet this week to keep my mind occupied. Also been looking at more information about what I have, or think I have. I don't recall ever being told exactly what my diagnosis was, which had lead me to just call it depression. But I do recall the new insurance not covering my psychologist because it was coded as borderline personality disorder. Which seemed really odd.
Anyways found some videos that might explain more about it. At the same time it reminds me of the "fortune telling" trick of making general statements and the person saying, "Yeah that happened, is happening, or will happen." For example, going on a trip, a death in the family, something happened that made you sad.
I really wanted to just work through the winter to get some extra cash and get myself out more. I have been noticing more bad days this year, and I am worried that the medicine may not be as effective. And as disappointed in myself as I am for failing, I have to pick myself up and try something else.
Which is where the crochet is coming in. Video games helped with the focusing of the mind too, basically so I didn't wig myself out with my own thoughts. But crochet seems to work as long as I have something to listen to also. (Ancient Aliens is plenty mindless enough)
